When you're alone you can hear the grass
And feel the falling rain
You can see the sky as always blue
The clouds and faces plain
So there you stand, with the wind
In silence long and last
You wonder what dreams you had
In a life still there, but long since past
My kingdom for a country
My kingdom for a country
My kingdom for a country of joy
My love for a life
My love for a life
My love for a life of peace
I pray for my country
I pray all my life for my country
My country for the lives before me
For what is a kingdom but the lives that live in it
My country, my kingdom, my king
Realization is but the dawn
Of knowing that you are fortune's pawn
The choices made, the actions took
Is but life's teasing, passing look
Can thou honestly say there are no regrets
That the past in present now begets
Can thou honestly say in you is calm
When destiny has thee easy in its palm
If thou be sure this risk you freely take
Then go on, a future you must make
Beware, there is no gray, only white and black
There is but one beginning, no turning back
Come and take the hand offered to thee
Go to where you wish fate to be
Perhaps, looking back
I'd already crossed the line
That infinite distance between the ordinary
And the world that I left behind
When did I realize it
That my first step was the last
To the beginning of everything
Because what had ended was the past
Though the world seemed to know instinctively
That another end was in sight
Could the rest of us only accept it
Knowing nothing as we fight
Somehow I reach the point of thinking this
That I'm not the one who's going to die
The border that separates dreams from reality
Is the one that's going to fly
Although I might one day forget
This power that relies on me as well
Perhaps I too will know instinctively
What ending it is that I must tell
Perhaps, looking back
I'd already crossed the line
That infinite distance between the ordinary
And the world that I chose to leave behind
So it can happen again
Despite the tears that didn't fall
Wasn't it enough before
To have stood alone
Looking up at the gray sky
I guess it wasn't enough to wish
I guess it was never enough
Just to have a dream
Am I meant to live again
Always as a stranger here
Waiting for someone to come
And say the words I want to hear
But the things I see never seem quite real
Is it because no one
Cares to see me standing here?
Although I plead with fate
Please see how sad I've become
How I wish I at least had some regrets
To push me into taking a step
I wish that I could take time
And force it to change for me
So that I can say my own words to myself someday
I'm walking, always walking
Without ever knowing why
I wonder if there's a future ahead of me
Or if I had something to leave behind
Days and nights go by like dreams
(I'm always waking up from one)
They hang on the edge of my memories
Only to fall as I come near
'Everything has a meaning to it'
People tell me as I walk by
But I find nothing more comforting
Than someone not saying 'hi'
No reason to live, no reason to die
A blank whiteness spreading far and wide
Am I a ghost or am I alive?
Maybe I walk to find out why
They're talking, always talking
And I always wonder why
I wonder if they speak nice of me
Or if I'm just being far too kind
I always want to know what they think
Behind the words and smiles
But if I know I think I will
Regret my so-called wiles
'Don't feel things too strongly'
People tell me as I ask why
Yet I always feel far more relief
When people say good-bye
Too young to know, too old to cry
I want nothing more to just walk on by
But people say that I must tell them 'hi'
There's no excuse for just being shy
What was I trying so hard to hide
Even though no one ever looked at me
I want to know why I cried
But who is to know that I was once upon a time
Hoping in spite of everything
I spent my entire life believing and acting so distantly
My days were spent in pointless dreams
People constantly told me to wake up right away
And said how selfish I was when I didn’t
But is it really so selfish to want to be happy here
Though I waited and searched no answer ever came
I kept walking through a dream
That just didn’t exist in any world here
Dying may not be the answer
But life never once had any meaning for me either
Who can understand what it’s like
To drown in a groundless sorrow
A thousand lives and a hundred masked faces
Are all calling out to me that happy endings aren’t true
That they’re only fragile stories
Invented to trick the ones that have no hope of wings
Who can understand what shadows are like to fall in
And knowing that you’re far beyond saving
And constantly being told that you’re a fool in saying so
I don’t want to hear anyone say the repeated words
That they understand and want to help me somehow
But what do they know of me
I know myself better than anyone
Especially since I’ve fallen too deep to be saved
No one ever knows the real truth
Of believing that your life was a hopeless mistake all along
And then finding out that you just might have been wrong
I’m only once a upon a time
The light shines so bright
Revealing wings softly divine
It shimmers alone in a sea of dying starlight
The hands of Time reach out to touch a moment
Creating a ripple in the darkness that fades
So that it becomes lost in the past
Hands close together in a comforted prayer
Voices rise up to a changing sky
Drifting into a single hymn of faith
Gentle wings enclose them in a loving embrace
Protecting against a descent into eternity
As locusts they descend upon this earth
All purpose lost in mist, yet spreading as a plague
Three Arbitrators rise in silent sorrow and understanding
To disperse the mist that knows naught but shadows
Until three breaks each a Chosen line, so man and earth are one
Shimon, the Hearkening, lies within the land of thistle and wind
He gathers the lies that become mirrors to the soul
To be brought before Dan, the Judge, in the united isle
Condemnation, or salvation, is the scale that he holds
Yered, the Descent, awaits beneath the skies of land of the free
Limitless is his act is finality, no chance of rebirth
For those that descend upon this earth as mist and plague
Bound by the Ties that Bind
The Arbitrators become the one chance at salvation
Hic Jacet
Hic Jacet Sepultus
And ye shall be as gods
Though I try
Why do I fall all over again
As if expecting the black gates open wide to the past left behind
Don't cry
Did I not say even if no one sees the truth that goes by
The present time will go on
Fight
If only for the pride withheld
The one you keep somewhere inside
While others ask in prayer walk forward to the door you chose to break down
Gaze up at the night sky and feel the cold
Wonder how the darkness can be so calm
See the stars that wishes become
But ask yourself if that will move the moon
You can just run away
It'd be so easy to let go
But memories will alway stand in the way
Reflected in your eyes
Though no one might see the truth that goes by
The present time will go on with you
